My worst fear
is being just like

everyone else.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

its exactly 11.58 and fireworks r blasting outside
lol

kinda sad 2 jus b siting in front of a comp doing awt i do evry nite

and this is gona b my 1st post for 2010


alice asked wat was the interesting part of her blog and i ended up going thru her posts and colecting her pics

i cam e acros a post that i havent read and i decided 2 do wat shes done, here it is:

1. PICK OUT A SCAR YOU HAVE, AND EXPLAIN HOW YOU GOT IT?


the one that is most obvious as a scar is a spot on my stomach that looks like melted skin over my normal stomach.

sum1 slamed a door on me and i got caught between the corner of the table and the slamed door.

and wen it healed, it jus healed like that.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?

posters, fotos, my artworks, maths revision, audition arows, and jewelery. my wals r plastered.

and on my roof is glow in the dark stars and a poster.

and on my lite's shade is a mario bandana, dogs, racing ribons and an origami star 0.0"


3. WHAT DOES YOUR PHONE LOOK LIKE?
samsung f250

plastered in stikers.

at least 10 fone charms.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?

almsot evrything.

i rly dun like: screamoes and country country musiq.

the songs that interest me 4 the longest is soul.


5. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE?
the same as my blog bakg. me wid my feet in the water at a beach.


7. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GAY MARRIAGE?

hav nothing against it.

8. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN?

11pm ish. l8 at nite.

9. ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL TOGETHER?
yea

10. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?

adore you - lil rain

11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?

my mom used 2 tel me this story where we slept in diff rms and at like midnite, she heard my nappy and she saw me crawling thru the dark past her rm.

and alice, i used 2 slp wid the door open purposely coz mom would come in knoking and it'l wake me up. if the door was open, then shed realise lol.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?

dun remmeba

13. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOUR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
mmm.. doesnt matr 2 me, rly.

14. DO YOU LIKE PAINKILLERS?
not rly. 2 much destorys ur body.

15. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
no coffee plz. and im alrite wid energy drinks. *remembas 4mal*

17. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

its new yrs and the house out the bak is chuking a masive party. i smel griled chikn. i want sum.

18. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?

mom, haha. it'l most liekly always b my mom.

19. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
canto and kinda mando

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT SOMEONE GAVE YOU?

xmas jus ended,il jus say my giant baby elmo 2 make it easy.

21. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
im not answering this one

22. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
no, but my elbow loks in place sumtimes and i cant bend it bak. wats that caled?

23. FAVOURITE FRIEND?
huh?

24. WHAT’S YOUR DREAM CAR?

big comfy car. jeep. i dun look like a jeep driver hey ? haha

25. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTER-LIFE?
no idea.

26. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF MARRIAGE?
its wonderful thing, but i think its under-taken, the r8s ppl divorcing. u should mary once, and once thats it.

27. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
cant rly choose who u fal in love wid.

and i would try my best not 2 , in taht situation

28. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?

jus tel them.

29. SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100.
69

30. BLONDE OR BRUNETTE?
shrugs

31. WHAT IS THE ONE PHONE NUMBER THAT SHOWS UP ON YOUR PHONE THE MOST?
dear alice: LOL! i show up on ur fone THE MOST?!

wow tahts scary

mine would b dady, he cals me almost evryday jus 2 make sure ive eaten et cetera.

32. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?

my mom. compared 2 her, there is no1 else more anoying.

othr than that, it'l b not enuf money on a shoping trip and not finding sum1 teasing u very funy.

33. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF YOUR BIRTH COUNTRY?
china.

34. YOUR WEAKNESS?

im physicaly weak? 0.0" ..

okok, althoe i tel evry1 im tank, no1 believes me.

and im glad.

coz im actulay not tank.

and fish . since white died, i cant eat fish. iduno, i look at it, feel kidna grossed like a horror movie and i cant eat it. cant even imagine eating it nemore.

35. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT YOU GAVE?
dun rememba. haha

36. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE HOLIDAY?

dont think i hav one. jus one wid val and the city i gues.

37. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?

nah. dun find them very interesting.

38. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE THIS?

tryna 3 way webcam wid alice and wiliam on videoconference.com

my mic didnt work, alices cam didnt work. lmao.

39. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
would taller b one?

if not then stronger legs, althoe i duno how u would do that.

if not then im not interested, jus gime the money.

40. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
my art. thats coz ur at skool wid lots of ppl.

my mom h8s me doing art, and i h8 her so she doesnt rly matr.

body-wise would b my hands wen i was young and my figure nowadays. idun get it, i dun think i hav a figure.

and no simon, ur not the only one whos said it ._.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
shrugs. i dun care, dun wana touch that stuf.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
dear alice: i came home one day and my bed was a double. i thought i walked in2 the rong rm.

lol.

and 4 my bday i would like ...

a piano.

a real full size grand piano.

45. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

yea. a random in my bros skool fotos, bak in his days.

my mom liked lina, my bro said she was ugly so they changed it 2 lena. (pronounced len-nah)

but evry1 jus says lena so i jus go along wid it. and yes u can cal me by my real names pronounciation now that ive spiled the beans if u wish.

len-nah

46. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
yes.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVOURITE?

midle finger. not that it could hav a strong simple meaning by stiking it up by itself, but coz its the longest and sum ppl can reach an octave wid the thumb and midle finger. tahts amzing.

rly amazing.

49. WHAT WAS YOUR LAST DRINK?
soya bean milk/drink.

im allergic 2 dairy, althoe i stil eat/dirnk it.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
i dun hav one, i rite different al the time.

also coz i rite wid both hands. in al my books.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE VEGETABLE?
i h8 eggplant.

i want 2 clear that up.

i eat eggplant i unvoluntarily vomit it bak up.

literaly.

and my fav would b ... lettuce. coz it goes so wel wid so many things.

and corn+butter+salt. thats delicious.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?

i crak my fingers b4 i play piano sumtimes.

i cant think of nething else.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
my preogrative-britney spears single.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

proly not. i dun c how i make a good friend ._.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
not that i rememba.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
its 3rd on my wat-2-look-4-in-a-guy list, so yea,

also note that liking a guys personality may leads 2 liking their looks 2.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?

i rage at sum1 else over the keyboard on msn, if the person rly pist me off that bad.

and..

oh,

like if i was pist at mom

and mom said rememba 2 colect the laundry

il make sure i "dun rememba" at all.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
i dun hav one 0.0" .. my family in china?

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
yea, but il always b expecting 4 them 2 fail. wont trust them if im afraid they'l fail.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TOY WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE?
from alice: "swirly, my pink snail (:

i still have her, but shes dirty now

><"


i rememba swirly. does swirly rememba walrus? haha.

and mine is goldie. i stil hug her 2 slp evrynite.

61. ARE YOU AFRAID OF GROWING UP?
no. i h8ed my childhood. mainly coz i was forced 2 tutor like after skool til 8pm and chinese skool and a whole day of tutor on wkend.

i h8ed the way adults teased u jus coz u were a kid and "ul understand wen u grow up". i had no respect 4 those ppl, and i stil dun.

il ignore them completely and if im pist enuf, il snap at them, talk bak 2 them wid watevr i feel like.

i h8ed the way they would scream at u in words that they noe u havent learnt and then throw u down and smak u until ur bauling 4 them 2 stop, and in the end, nevr understand wat u evr did rong in the 1st place.

and i h8ed the way ppl nevr xplained things 2 u, even thoe u asked, jus coz ur a kid and they dun think ul understand.

i h8ed the way adults nevr cared about wat u said, even thoe u were corect. on top of that, i used 2 cough and lose my voice alot wen i was young so wen i said sumtin, i meant it.

i h8 the way they tel u off 4 things they do themselves. hypocrites.

i h8 the way they tel u off 4 teling them off.

i h8 the way u drop a pl8 2 giv them the msg that u want them 2 shut the hel up, but instead they scream at u even louder 4 breaking the pl8.

i h8 the way how u ask "mom, can u pas the soy sauce" at the dinr table and she tels u off coz ur supose 2 b working the hardest/youngest and so u hav 2 climb around the whole table wen ur mom coulda jus handed it 2 u in les than 2 seconds.

i h8 the way how if i got 100% in a test, it didnt matr, coz i havent done it 100 times in a row.

i h8 the way they forced food in2 u. stufing enuf food 4 5 ppl in my lunchbox only ends up in the bin, mom. and yes im gona say i 8 it or ur gona tel me off.

i h8 how i was nevr alowed 2 hav my hair logn in primary, and my mom would alawys cut it. it wasnt until i hit hi skool that i finaly won that stupid fite. its jus hair. and its not even hers.

i h8 the way al moms (ands dads) scream stuf like "i wish i nevr raised u" or "ul nevr b strong enuf 2 suport urself " at their kids. jus shut the hel up, ur the stupid reason they feel like suiciding evryday.

wow thats a long answer ._.

and here i am 2day. sry mom, ur thousands of dollars on my tutoring since yr 1 on about at least 10 diff tutoring places hasnt goten me newhere 2day. im not gona b the doctor or business owner that u once wished 4.

i love art and thats al i can do, so get lost ._.

NO. i am NOT afraid of growing up.

62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
of course not. *sarcasm*

63. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS?
no. and thats my final answer.

64. DOES 11:11 MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?
yea. make a wish =)

66. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?
tbh, me and mom hav proly ploted on kiling each othr many times. at least i hav.

obviously i nevr did it.

and dadys fine, dady actualy cs me as a real living person that has feelings and the rite 4 a say on things taht concern me.

67. WHAT IS THE MOST PAIN YOU HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED?
heartache.

heartaches hav eras, and im not gona say wich one.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
sum. chuks=must

69. LAST THING YOU SPILLED?

ramen flavouring

70. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
4 tropical fish

71. WHAT IS THE LAST FURRY THING YOU TOUCHED?
gloomy

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE COLOURS
blue.

and then it'l b a mix betwen purple, white, green, aqua et cetera.

but definitely blue.

73. WHAT’S THE LAST BOOK YOU READ?
kill the possum, 4got by who

I HILY RECOMEND IT

74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
both, not fuly grown yet thoe.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
i gues?

76. WHAT’S YOUR DREAM VACATION?
japan, china wid family+friends

77. LAST THING YOU ATE/DRANK?
dream choc

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
selina LOL. she caled 2 say hapy new yr.

79. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
hair/face (these r EQUAL)

then body

im sry, the body counts (4 me) @_@"

81. FAVOURITE THING TO HATE?
iuno 0.0"..

82. FAVOURITE DRINK?
uh coke.

i used 2 b adicted.

but its easier now, coz my famiily buys les coke.

83. FAVOURITE ZODIAC SIGN?
obviously wat i am? gemini.

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT?

ice sk8ing.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOUR?
blak. and no, it doesnt not look brown in the sun.

its jus ditch blak, nevr changed ._.

86. EYE COLOUR?
brown brown. not dark or lite.

87. TALL OR SHORT?
short. by miles.

88. SIBLINGS?
older bro. his jus like anothr person taking up space in this house. and since we're over 10 yrs apart, im gr8ful 4 the space.

althoe ive felt lonely as a kid sumtimes and wished 4 sum1 2 come play tea party or snap wid me ._.

89. FAVOURITE MONTH?
i dun rly hav one.

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
love it

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
utube vid : lily allen - not fair

92. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR?

would hav 2 b my bday.

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
from alice: "its not really shyness…

ok maybe it is ^^’

idk ive ill ever be brave enough to do something like that."

ive nevr done it. unles its like "HEY ALICE! the thing movie is coming out tmrow, wana go wach it?" kinda thing.

and grls shouldnt exactly b doing the asking.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
summer

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
relationships, ... by FAR.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
from alice: "LENA (x), YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO."

haha shes 100% rite. cept i read it about 50 days l8.

and iduno, not many ppl read my blog. mayb anna.

98. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?

mmm... stereotypical nerdy game-addict boys.

99. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
nah, and yes im sure of it lol.

100. BIGGEST FEAR(S)?

from alice: "im scared of heaps of things.

probably being blind/deaf/unable to talk.

but i cant go near fire, matches, scary/gross looking insects, bl0od (sometimes), the dark (sometimes)…"

u 4got sharp things, alice.

i would definitely b afraid of bing blind (art?) or deaf (musiq?). not so much unable 2 talk.

im not afraid of fire, matches, blood, the dark, or sharp things.

and i am terified of insects, especialy dead ones.

thats 1st on my list:

1. dead insects.

2. walking thru places that mite as wel b horror movie scenes. and no, they may not necesarily mean dark places.

3. and this one is gona sonud evr so stupid and smal, but its going on this list. sum of u may understand, i would expect most of u 2 not. and that is...

..faling in love. agen.


much love <33

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