its australia day and the google logo is "doodle 4 google" day.

bro, who even noes about that?

so i jus had 2 lovely LoL games.
1 we won, i was on 18/10. 8)
and the last 1 in wich we lost =( . i was on like 10/6 or sumtin.

i hav nevr had 2 GOOD positive scores in a row. this is a masive turn in my life. plz praise me. xD .



^ HOT DAYUUUM.

me and alice the othr day were talking about how much we'd like a pair of loubitons. then agen, i wouldnt buy a single pair of shoes that costd more than my car that sits in the garage colecting dust.

i could b driving it, but m stil on my L's so i drive my moms car instead.
i dun even hav the keys 4 the car.
... but thats a whole diff story .

and i got cald nigel the othr day.
is it true? am i al alone? D=

like alice was on a slpover jus then. shes always at slpovers. the most social thing i do nowadays is play LoL ._.
and most ppl wont even consider that social. but that may b coz i much prefer 2 not play wid friends - bro, i dun care that i ksed u. u eithr want my help wile m dieing saving ur precious lil life OR u die alone wile i dance around safely in front of u.
and aware and behold : sumtimes i get the kil.
far , man. thank god none of them noe this blog exists.

i rly believe its coz they noe m female - no strangr in game evr tels me off that bad.

i like best how they mach like, ur lvl wid ppl around ur lvl, coz u get les n00bs as u play on xD . haha

i also told myself 2 slp at 12 . i desper8ly need beauty slp, goodnes.
also, str8 aftr 1 of my lol games, i went on2 an azn wholesale site i usualy go on and started looking at shoes. they havent got ne new stok =( .

that also made me realise sumtin :
u noe u gona b broke wen shoe shoping becomes ur daily routine.

but m working tmrow, double pay. YEEE HAW. the only problem is its a new job =X . and aparently i hav 2 learn 2 carry 3 dishes at a time.
my last waitres job, i was the only waitres there so nobody had the choice and i jus caried 2 dishes at a time, no matr how busy it got. i hope they like me =(, even if i cant learn 2 cary 3 dishes. it gets heavy, u noe D=

sigh. i was gona talk about sumtin but i jus 4got it.
hmmm
hmmmm....

oh yea. on fris m going sumwhere and my mom askd me where m going.
me: city. (i lied)
mom: me 2! wat time u leaving?
me: m going by train .
mom: ME TOO. OMG. LETS GO 2GETHR. 
me: m going wid friends.
mom: perfect! u can talk 2 ur friends wile i jus sit nxt 2 u.
me: (i jus walkd str8 in2 this disaster, didnt i.) 
me: no!
mom: oh cmonnn TT 
me: nononono!
mom: omg how can u do this 2 me =( .  *slowly walks bak 2 her rm* 


the funy thing is. wel its a long story.
like wen i had my mac laptop, my dad gave me anothr laptop. and he bought a new laptop, and my BRO givs me anothr laptop.

so m siting here wid my mac, my dads, and my bros laptop lieing around in my rm w8ing 4 me 2 make them useful.  and then aftr i returned my mac bak 2 the skool, i used my dads laptop. so my bros laptop was jsu left laying around.

my mom sugestd that i teach her how 2 use a computer.
so i did.

the funy thing is... evrynite she cals me over and evrytime i arive in her rm, its a question about the laptop. usualy wen i walk in her rm, shes eithr waching tv or reading a book. or on the telefone.
now its eithr the laptop or telefone.
she has a MASIVE tv scrn, and i feel almost as thoe shes abandoned such a beautiful cre8ion.
my bro has an even bigr tv scrn. i used it 4 a smal wile 2 play playst8ion. not nemore thoe. (i got LoL. 8D)
it reminds me of wen she 1st started steaming rice in a pot instead of using the rice cooker. the rice cooker was brand new as wel, anothr lovely cre8ion as a result of inventors and rice cooker ppl. she abandoned that, 2.

sigh =(.

i also jus went on my QQ (yea i noe, lame.) coz my cousin goes on that and he taught me how 2 go on like, a qq version of facebook. looks prety much jus like facebook. the only problem is i cant read much chinese so wen m on it, the main thing taht guides me is the layout. use it jus like facebook and it'l work. LOL.

i tried msging himm yesters coz it was chinese new yr and like, hes in china so. yea. he was on away thoe =( . but he emailed me!

OMG.

he remembers me! xD . i jus postd a big smiley face on his wal. i also instantly began typing "faceb-" wile tpying face. oh god.

i dun rly noe how 2 look but theres a smal section cald "l8est fotoes" and he has a lot of luvohs. i gues we're not al that diff 2 ppl our age in othr countries. it also lags a lot on my chrome browser so i giv up there ._.

my mom offered me a fone card 4 me 2 cal him directly 2 his mobile. that is prefered - over the fact he isnt usualy properly online on qq, but the last time i spoke 2 him, he didnt sound al that interested in hearing from me as the 1st time i cald him =(.

how upseting. he was like the only person that i properly spent time wid over in china as wel... coz he was around my age and such and stuf liek that - not coz othr family membrs were bing ghey or nething 0.0"

hm. 2day , i also reminded myself how much i used  2 spend on my nails. i rediscovered my nail decos colection and the amount of nail brushed i owned. wow.

my 18th is this yr as wel. i nevr rly believed this day would come. 16 used 2 b rly old 2 me. and wen i turned 16, i wondred wat i had spent al my time doing. wat should i do? i was hoping i could travel sumwhere , was thinking melbourne (4 sum reason i started typing "london" . dun even ask) ... but if i were 2 gues, id proly b in mid yr exams and working on the wkends. jus like my 17th.

then agen, most ppl proly xpect me 2 go clubing on my 18th or jus hav heaps of alki at home and invite evry1 over.
god no.
thats proly the reason id prefer concentr8ing on xams and/or working on wkends neway, no1 would come 2 my lame watevr it is. bbq or high tea or wichevr.
=X .

i rly do wish i could travel , thoe. =(   jus 2 melbourne, even. sumwhere diff. that'l b a perfect 18th.
the best part? no1 is forced 2 buy a present. they can b like "oh lenas not even here, i wont c her on her bday neway. that means opotunities 2 lag cing her and there4 2 l8 2 buy her a pres! woo hoo!" haha.

i also thank evry1 who reads my blogs widout puting me in inferior by teling me they cant read this.

in fact, i hav ful respect of evry1 who doesnt complain about the way i type. and thats coz they eithr understand that i noe how 2 spel properly but jus doesnt care coz this aint their english esay, or they jus think m very dumb and respect me neway . both is good - ur good ppl, believe me .

OMG.
MY COUSIN IS ON QQ
WTH. LOL.
ITS LIKE 2AM.
oh never mind, it was a random friend request by sum1 i obviously duno. aw =( .

damn.

neways!
il b in livo tmrow making sum short trips 2 the bank and sumtin else and al taht, and then il b home early 2 get rdy 4 work. how dreadful. if work goes wel, il b hapy.

if it doesnt, id b rathr upset.

i also found out that u usualy stik wid the job catergory that u start wid, simply coz u dun hav experience in nething else. tahts me neway. like if u jus look at al my last jobs from tmrows new job 2  wichevr i can remembr up 2:
chinse restaurant waitres,
chinese food court restaurant waitres,
chinese restaurant waitres,
chinese take away restaurant recieptionist/waitres,
sum clothes storekper.

ok, so if u ignore the last 1, u can c that they al start looking the same. xD.
i hily recomend evry1 get a job at a restaurant. ne restaurant, simply coz ur lunch break and stuf would b free coz u usualy eat 2gethr AT the restaurant insteada going out and spending like $10 on food outside evryday. coz u basicaly lower the amount u get paid. unles ur lawyer or sumtin. or unles its 1 of em super busy restuarants, in wich the case would b u eat by urself. stil good, u noe. stil free.

i should also consider slping soon. very soon. only coz i need that beauty slp b4 tmrows big day. but this is 1 em nites wen bebi slps earlier than me and no1s left talking 2 me. id usualy start a convo by talking 2 sum1 but they die kinda quik and m left feeling lonlier than i would if i hadnt spoken 2 ne1 in te 1st place.
SOOOOooo in cases like thse, i think its betr 2 jus blog a bit more until i am satisfied and decide 2 fal aslp. heh ^^

that way i kp my pride of not losing 2 ne trying and slp a bit betr.

*yawn*

oh, there goes the 1st warning. u noe , sumtimes i wondr where id b in the future. most ppl would say "ud end up in a dead end, whether that b a rly rich dead end or a poor dead end. u lose interest in life and evryday becomes routine, no matr how much money u make."

i think il b xpecting that as wel, if i dun do game art and work 4 LoL or become the famous fashion designer in london or sumtin . oh and thats where the almost acidental "london" came from earlier in the post. i was hoping i could move 2 london wen i grow up and hold up my fashion label there.
the curency and fashion sense is hier there.
australia only cares about superdry and stussy. thats not designer, thats branded . no1 cares about hwo simple it is, it jus has 2 b branded.
wen sumtin is designer, it becomes so much more. it becomes the masterpiece art of sum1s creativity. il blog up sum fotos from my most absolute fav designer: alexander mcqueen. he died last yr, wikipedia said he suicided from ppl disrespecting him coz he was ghey. kinda sad, rly. his works rly prove himself worthy, i wish he knew.

oh and, he was also the designer of the weding dres from the royal weding.



^ recognise these? lady gaga has them. i think they're rathr od but then agen, no1 would hav thought of a design so simple but diff.



^ these r his signature shoes and i hav no idea wat they're cald. i think they look od and rathr heavy and  uncomfortable. but stil yet, amazing design.



^ i actualy imagined heels like this wen i was young. feminine and classy at the front, but the heel is steampunk and mechanical looking. nevr did i think sum1 could design it this perfect, thoe! i love them so much .

i dun actualy hav al that much interest in things from mcqueen othr than shoes. same wid the othr designeres neways. al the handbags and dreses and belts and jewelery and things like that start looking the same. prime xample is like gucci , lv, chanel. they al start looking the same.

neways m starting 2 get a headache from bing 2 slpy so ithink this is my queue 2 head 2 bed!

good, haha. i thought id nevr get beauty slp at this lonly r8.

much love <33