aaddas

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"I'm just gonna break break your,

break break your heart"

now playing: break your heart - taio cruz

jus came home from church

didnt go lunch coz i didnt feel like it

mom told me off 4 wearing this dres 2 church.

its not even revealing.

its jus a bit low but doesnt reveal nething.

or mayb thats jus coz im flat

NEHOOO

moving on

the 1000+ foto shoot wid alice yesteres in my garden!

i posted them all on facebook so u can c them:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152360&id=564646389

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152360&id=564646389

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152360&id=564646389

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CLICK TO SEE LENAS FOTOSHOOT FOTOS

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152360&id=564646389

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152360&id=564646389

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152360&id=564646389

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152360&id=564646389

ps. i nevr use facebook. only 2 reply stuf

and the aim of this was 2 find a picture 4 my art assign

so the plan was : take as many pictures and hope one of them become perfect 2 draw 4 my art assign

wat hapen instead: jsu had a whole heap of fun and nevr got 1 4 my assign but thats ok. jus hav another fotoshoot another time.

this is in my rm, i had only finished that desgin 2day and thought id do sum fotoshooting at it. rong lighting but i couldnt rly stik a torch on the roof or sumtin lol

and finish.

was rly fun and yea.

uuuummm

i hav 2 do my hw

and my eco assigng

wich i am hily not bothered.

much love ♥♥

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"B-B-B-Break it, oh! L-L-L-Ladies!"

now playing: mystery - beast

lol at cc slaping lameion acros the face 2day.

rong guy cc, rong guy xD

haha.

im seling usbs btw, 4gb, $10 each. cruzer blade.

and yes, ppl DO buy them. ive made over $100 alredy, ok.

so i dun get y sum of u actualy say "good luk seling those lena, if ne1 actualy buys them haha."

ive had like 5 ppl say taht stuf 2 me. its so mean =(

and thers no discount if u buy more than 1, lol.

NO, they're not illegal. NO, i didnt steal them.

and i dun kp the money. "so y do u stil sel them if u dun make nething out of it lena?"

coz its fun and im not super MATERIALISTIC like u that only cares about personal gain such as MONEY from a simple job such as SELING USBS at ur own skool.

xD .

b spontaneous !

much love ♥♥

g

so i had very strange dream last nite that i remembad so clearly coz i woke up str8 after by my clo kalarm.

i was in my own rm

didnt noe i was in a dream

and then sum1 downstairs

said sumtin bout sum1 piking me up in 5 mins 2 sumtin very xciting

and it had me screaming in excitement and joy

then i was like : oh my goodnes, i hav 2 change outa my pjs.

so i go 2 my wardrobe, pik out a few of each clothing and hand pik out bits and pieces 2 make an outfit.

i look in2 the miror and thought: "nah, i wana wear a diff top"

so i change my top, and turn 2 look in2 the miror agen.

and the top i was wearing is a diff top 2 the one i thought i changed in2.

and i thought, oh thats strange, so i turn around and change in2 that top agen.

i turn 2 the miror and its a diff one.

i could not change in2 a top that didnt transform in2 an ugly top wen i looked in2 the miror

it was always a plain or boring top of sum sort that i didnt like and thought i nevr piked out in teh 1st place.

and so i kept trying 2 change.

and eventualy my skirt started 2 change by itself as wel

no mater wat top or skirt i change in2, it was always a diff and more boring and ugly outfit i was wearing evrytime i looked in2 the miror.

soon i started 2 panic coz they were coming soon and i cant mis it,

and i was looking disastrous, so i tried 2 aim 4 sumtin that looked at least reaonsable.

it became a game between me and the miror, with luk as the aim of the game.

and i was in mass panic. MASS panic.

il put on random tops and turned 2 c if it was sumtin reasonable,

sumtimes the top would b ok but the skirt was disastrous. or vice versa.

eventualy, the clothes changed in2 ugly clothes i didnt even own, and my panic lvl grew crazy.

i then woke up 2 my clok alarm. xD

the dream was so intense 4 sum reason, my heart was racing even wen i woke up.

and i was so glad it was a dream.

like those times wen u wish u were newehre else in the world, newehre at al.

or if u could reverse time, jus once.

and it hapened 2me this time.

i took the time 2 look up wat this dream meant coz it was so strong on me, so intense 0.0"

quotes form sites:

"Changing your clothes may indicate a change in your lifestyle (past, present or future)"

"If in your dream you are wearing clothes very different from what you have in your wardrobe, the implications may be that you are discontented with your image."

"To dream that you are constantly changing your clothes represents the need for change and your need to fit into a new situation. "

"To dream that you can't find anything to wear indicates anxiousness or nervousness about fitting into some social group or situation - you're not sure who to be these days."

the need 2 fit in2 a new situation...

hmm.

wondr wat that could b lol.

*thinks*

duno lol

o wel, a dreams jus a dream. xP

this must b one of the 1st dreams ive had where im not runing around, runing away, or flying.

that could b my new situation. not dreaming botu the above, lol.

nehoo.

i should go 2 slp now.

friday tmrow, and no eco clas (YUUUUSSSSSSHHHHH!!!!)

il record more dreams if i rememab them, jus coz i hav nothihg 2 blog about.

OOOHH!! i jus had the most exciting art assign. (not rly)

its take fotos of sum1, or sum1 take fotos of u, and ur gona make a self portrait out of pencil on paper wid watevr u want around the portrait 2 bring out meaning.

i asked alice 2 come over and take fotos of me around the house.

and then il pic one and edit it in my imagination(not fotoshop) 2 become my final work.

yea..

last time we did a spontaneous fotoshoot at cabra. on valentines / chinese new yrs. in the rain. lol.

i want a bit of darknes in this foto 2. duno how im gona do that but o wel. il ask alice 2 c if she can stay a bit l8r so we hav nites darknes.

oh and i need a chain.

a heavy chain. duno where il get that but we'l c 0.0"

hm.

that'l b al 4 2day.

ps. piano reqs wil come slower if ur not patient ._.

much love ♥♥

Dreaming:

Animals
Animals may represent one's parents and their relationship to a parent in particular. Domestic animals usually denote good fortune whilst wild animals symbolize trouble, fears or even misfortune.

Baby
Babies generally denote a feeling of vulnerability, or need for love. If you see a pretty baby in your dream you will be fortunate. However, if the baby is ugly or displeasing to you, beware of the people around you, someone might not be worthy of your trust.

Blood
Blood symbolizes life, while in women it can also represent creativity. When red, blood symbolizes passion or violence. If you dream of losing blood you may be feeling exhausted. If you dream of causing someone to bleed, you may feel the desire to reduce their power.

Cats
Cats symbolize instinct and the female side of the self. If you see a cat in your dreams it might be a sign of developing your intuitive powers. However, if you are being attacked by a cat, beware of fake friends. If there’s a cat screeching in your dream, beware of gossip. A purring cat promises happiness.

Car
Cars generally symbolize power, status and vitality. Pay attention to what your feelings were about the dream? Was it a pleasant journey? Was it a luxurious car or an old clunker? Who was driving? Where the car takes you may represent where your life should be going. If the journey was stressful or ended up in an accident your dream may be a warning to change course in waking life before disaster strikes.

Cheating
If your dream included you cheating on your partner it might be a sign of guilt, or even your need to explore your sexuality. If your partner is cheating on you in your dream this might indicate inner fears of abandonment or lack of self-esteem.

Cross
Usually represents great balance in your life. It might also indicate a crossroad in your life about an important decision. It may also be a sign of something coming to an end in your life, like a relationship, a job etc.

Death
Dreaming of death may simply symbolize your anxiety about dying. However death in dreams is more often a sign of changes in one's life, since resurrection comes after death. A dead person in a dream may be relevant to past relationships with that particular person. If the dead person is you, this might indicate an exhausting and unpleasant life condition; spend some time for your self and let go of everything that stresses you.

Dogs
Dogs generally symbolize male energy A friendly dog indicates domestic peace and happiness. A vicious dog may be a sign of upcoming health or financial trouble. A fierce dog or a dog attacking you suggests untrustworthy friends or trouble within friendships. A howling dog warns of separation from loved ones. A nervous dog straining at the end of a leash may indicate that you are fed up with a problem. A dog barking happily indicates pleasing social recognition, but if it is barking fiercely, you are being warned of possible legal troubles.

Falling
Dreaming of falling may represent the fear of letting go of something or someone, or the loss of control in a situation.

Fire
Fire may symbolize various things; sexual or extreme emotions, great passion, hate, anger, need for transformation, need to get rid of things that make you a worse person, or even an actual fever. Dreaming of your house being on fire may indicate a feeling that your life is 'going up in flames'.

Flying
Flying indicates a need for freedom or search for love, fortune or a place in life and generally symbolizes your strong mind and will. Flying in dreams is usually a good omen of overcoming obstacles and finding happiness. If you are flying with ease and enjoying the landscape below, then it suggests that you are on top of a situation. Difficulties in flight might indicate lack of control. If you feel fear when you are flying it suggests that you are afraid of challenges and success.

Hair
Hair usually represents conscious knowledge or the lack of it. As Freud said abundant hair may signify virility or male sexuality. Cutting hair may symbolize loss of power and self-esteem or even fear of getting old.

House
Different rooms within a house represent your varying emotions, ideas and complexes. Going upstairs symbolizes conscious thinking while the basement represents the unconscious mind. A new house represents financial security while an old house is a sign of a reunion or renewal of an old association. Building a house or seeing one under construction forecasts unexpected gain. Seeing a house being demolished indicates grief over a sudden loss.

Kiss
Was the kissing pleasant? This predicts happiness and contentment. Was it something meaningless and insincere? Then it indicates an untrustworthy friend or disappointment in a love affair. To dream of trying to avoid a kiss from someone you dislike symbolizes a vexing experience. If you dream about watching other people kiss it may indicate feeling lonely or unhappy in your own relationship.

Killing
Represents repressed anger. It may also indicate jealousy or a severe emotional stress during which you must make a huge effort to control your temper.

Lost
Dreaming of being lost indicates that you are lost in your life, something is missing. This could include love, career, and spirituality. Where you are lost, holds the solution to your problem.

Naked
Nudity may symbolize being caught off guard and unprepared for a challenge. It might also symbolize childhood innocence, freedom or a desire for sex or recognition. If you're feeling bad about your nudity it might indicate a vulnerability or a fear of being embarrassed and exposed. If no one else seems to notice your nudity, your fears are unfounded and you are simply making an issue out of nothing.

Running
Such a dream might indicate your need to escape from a situation. If you are being chased pay attention, the pursuer might be a part of your self that you avoid seeing. A dream of being unable to run indicates a lack of self-confidence. A more direct analysis of chase dreams is the fear of being attacked.

Sex
Sexuality in dreams depends on the emotions you get. If the feelings are pleasant it is very normal. However if the dream was disturbing you need to explore its meaning. A feeling of dissatisfaction might indicate that your love relationship needs to be renewed. If you dream of being raped it is symbolizing a betrayal of the most powerful kind.

Snakes
Snakes can symbolize temptation or even betrayal. A snake biting you indicates the betrayal of a friend or an enemy.

Teeth
Losing teeth symbolizes the fear of getting old or the anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. It also symbolizes change in one's way of thinking. Teeth also symbolize money. This theory is based on the tooth fairy story told to children that loose teeth.

Water
Water represents the unconscious self. Calm water is usually a sign of fortune, rough waters alert you to reconsider your actions. If you dream of deep water it might indicate that you are afraid of emotional involvement in a relationship. If you see your reflection in water your subconscious may be trying to draw your attention to an aspect of yourself. Waterfalls in a dream indicate energizing, healthy release of emotions and healing.

how bout rain? lol.

i thought that was quite fun 2 read

uuum yea.

im working on the reqs, ok. plz b patient ._.

and the usbs came 2day, if ne1 wanted 2 buy.

preorders goes 1st.

much love ♥♥

absolutely nothing 2 blog about

cept

1. I H8 ECONOMICS

2. eng clas was sooooo boring 2day. i closed my eyes 4 about 5 seconds evry 10 seconds coz i was so close 2 aslp

and wats azn anh emz.

...

xP

hm.

and who can draw a portrait of lena while looking at lena widout failing?

even my art teacher couldnt do it.

is there sumtin about me that makes me undraw-able? ._.

uuummm

nothing 2 blog about.

hm.

and im sry, im skiping the req autumn voyage coz i rly dun like it =X

the nxt req il b doing is jus sky chord.

its quite nice xP

much love ♥♥

so reently i hav been adicted 2 this song:

Rhymastic - I LOVE YOU

im gona copy + paste lyrics here coz they're rly nice.

it would hav made a nice song 4 a 1 mont anni vid, but obviously i would hav had 2 w8 so long that il 4get this song 4 that 2 hapen lol

Rhymastic - I love you

Today is the special day for me to show

The emotion I’m holdin’ I want you to know

It’s been a month since you entered my world

Forever ain’t enough with the love for you girl

Those kisses we shared

All moments we spent

Every single word you say you know I always care

This song for you baby

So many days I’ve waited

Standin’ here with you all I wanna say is …

Girl I love you (I love you)

Yes I love you (I love you)

Girl I love you (I love you)

I just want you to know that I love you (I love you)

Yes I love you (I love you)

Girl I love you (I love you)

I just want you to know that I love you

It’s true

Wanna spend my life with you

Love you despite all the struggle we have been through

Just hold me tight

And say you’ll be mine

I don’t need the world I need you by my side

Cuz you mean the world to me

It’s so clearly you can see

We‘re born for each other,yes we were meant to be

So this song for you baby

Many days I’ve waited

Standin’ here with you all I wanna say is…

And baby you know

That I’ll be with you wherever you go…

Through days and nights

This love always comes from deep inside

This song for you honey

You know

It’s not easy for me to show all my emotion…

So I have to put it into this song…

I hope you can understand it

I love you baby

i worked on my wall agen. its SOOO tiring @_@"

upcoming reqs: (i didnt ask 4 these this time.)

1. autumn voyage. i dun rly like this one so im not sure if im gona do it

2. sky chord. i like it, depends on if i can play it.

3. weding dres. i can play this alredy so no prob wid this one.

il b doing these in order, and if i skip, it means i cant play it =X

im sry xD

and i put them here so i rememba them ._.

uuuuuuuuuum.

ive bneen so exhausted after working on my wall ._.

i stil need furry cow material.

and i h8 eco.

lena dosnt giv a crap about eco, eco pises her off.

hmmm.

nothing much hapened 2day

sport was lol.

and i ddred 2day

2 games , 6 songs, felt rly rly hot afterwards @_@"

um.

hm.

im jus so brain dead atm.

gnite evry1 ._.

much love ♥♥

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hmmm

i spent about3 hrs 2day working on my wall agen

its not finish

needa find furry cow material

=X

i found fake vines 2day, and i bought more tissue paper.

i should hav done that thing like k8e where she takes pictures on her progres.

im about 10 steps in alredy so i didnt bother and il make a whole blog on all my steps and the end result.

ps. i used ALOT of tissue paper. @_@"

hmmmm

il b spending most of my day tmrow decor8ing my wal .

so bland in words.

"hey! im going 2 a party tmrow, how bout u? wat u doing tmrow?"

"decor8ing my bedrm wall"

"...."

oh and i made my utube vid , the piano welcoming, coz 2 ppl were xcited about it (i think they were neway)

uuum..

yea.

lol.

im jus w8ing 4 it 2 b procesed atm.

here r the songs, since it'l b on the same blog:

intro: planeterium - oi atsuka

main: haru haru - big bang

The ray is fired at squigellz...

... and she changes gender!!!!

The ray is fired at Miaiha...

... and he changes gender!!!!

The ray is fired at Golarkle...

... and he gains 2 movement points!!!!

mm.. nothing speshal.

OOH!

I HAD

NACHO WEDGES 2DAY.

WEDGES WID NACHO SAUCE

WICH =

WEDGES WID CHEESE + TOMATO SAUCE + THOSE ONION CHOPED BITS ET CETERA

IT WAS SO NICE I DIDNT SHARE.

friday nites hav such a good feelign 2 it,

no skool no nothing tmrow.

stay up doing watevr u want,

in this case it would proly b decor8ing my wall lol

vid stil isnt procesed.

not surprised i gues, utube used 2 take 1 hr 2 proces, but they've goten beta and hav been only taking 15 mins in the past uploads ive made.

oh hey it procesed

but i changed the front pic,

so im gona w8 til utube upd8es on that 2 haha.

Lenas piano welcoming. HARU HARU - BIG BANG

there we go

enjoy!

♥ u sammy

much love ♥♥

i spent about 5 hrs 2day decor8ing my wall

and spent about $15 on craft material. lmao.

i stil need a few things.

and wat my wal looks like atm (uncompleted) looks nothing like wa i had intended.

the whole thing was off te top of my head

i was jus looking at wat i had bought

and thought about it

then it was like:

hm..

"mayb this would look beta"

oh and lots of my time was spent experimenting 2.

im quite glad wid the progres so far,

i want that

*fluffy*

tsort of feel 2 it.

and i stil need furry cow pattern matieral and fake vines.

=X

and a descision on wat design 4 the space above m yart box

neways,

enuf of my boring craft life,

VID COMING SOON.

and blog un-temporarily opactiy-ing soon.

hm

oh and i saw andrew 2day lol

hi andrew! xD

uuuum.

i saw a guy on the bus wid the same neklace as me. the L one.

he was hardcore emo. bit strange, rly, a tiny azn skool kid and a hardcore fullgrown emo wearing the same neklace.

i got told off my bus driver coz i had the rong bus pass.

i duneven hav 1 2 go home yet.

stupid metro link ._.

AND tway.

ive been paying evryday 4 tway.

far out. =="

oh!

i had double art 2day.

i love art,

althoe its quiteboring

its like a quiet-and-relaxing thing,

not much of a subject 2 me

like a

... therapy. 0.0"

LOL.

im strange.

and since its 12.26am atm,

HAPPY BDAY PETER!

=D!

hmm...

shoping list 4 tmrow: fake vines + biger buterflies if found + furry cow pattern fabric.

L> relatively medium sized glowing plastic stars.

S> 4 gb sandisk usbs, $10 ea.

much love ♥♥

dear alice,

from alice: " -such- a cute dress ;-;

… why do i feel like ive seen this dress before"

coz i psoted taht dres b4 on this blog 0.0"

"although i wonder if id buy/wear these things if i was given a chance to…

wait one more i cbf ssing"

... u can rite clik, copy picture, ctrl v.

works on my blog at least @_@"

so, b4 i 4get.

uuuuum. my day was ok

mass was boooooooooring.

i had my 1st piece of eucharist jus 4 the sake oftrying it 2day.

wen i was w8ing 4 the bread 2 b put in my hands, the priest stoped and w8ed.

i was confued 4 a sec until i rememba sum1teling me 2 say amen.

haha.

and

i asked around this question:

"if i was a dancer, wat style dancer would i b?"

its a personality question, b4 ne of u start thinking i was asking coz i wana start dancing.

i didnt tel ppl it was a personality question, and i told them 2 tel me the 1st answer they hav.

its an interesting question coz many answers collided.

many said im not built 4 dancing

2 said ballrm

1 said tango

1 said ballet

3 said clasical, until i reminded them clasical is jus a style of musiq, but i get wat they mean. "dancing 2 clasical musiq"

1 said contemporary.

i had 1 that said breakdancing and that was coz they were tryna make me shut up.

not that that person wil evr read this blog.

hopefuly neway, they werent bing very nice ._.

uuum.

i hav hw but i cant b bothered doing it atm.

ps. my valetine roses r dieing lol.

uuumm..

oh and

i can play the piano welcoming song bet anow.

vid coming soon =)

hm.

oh yes and

i tore down many posters off my wall

all these blank spaces make me feel bland.

i plan 2 redo them b4 i tore them down neway

ok so, this is wat i hav decided so far:

this design above my bed, wid a wooden hi stool + a pot of flowers nxt 2 it coz the space isnt exactly verticaly rectangular:

this above my keyboard, wid sum musical notes, more/bigger butterflies:

and one of the folowing 4 the space above my art box:

(without the veil):

that last pic jus look nice, obviously 2 difficult 2 put on2 a flat surface @_@"

obvoiusly i wont b jus printing it out on big paper. that boring.

il b making these pictures out of bits and pieces of diff things. i hav thought about like tissue paper and glitter, and painted bits of paper and stuf. it would look more interesting and would b heaps more fun.

need a bit more money thoe..

=X

im not gona ask my (very few or jus unknown) blog readers 2 say wich one they would think should go in the space above my art box coz no1s evr interested in this stuf.

and by "this stuff" i mean art, craft, ok.

it means wat picture , y, how would it fit in 2 space, would it flow wel wid the things i kp around hte picture, do i needa add nething, do i needa take out nething, and most importantly:

wat am i gona make the image out of and how.

this is abouting blue-taking tissue paper , paper, bits of material or watevr else on2 my wall and making the picture.

sounds stupid hey?

but this grl inspires me, she has gr8 ideas, also al the pics were her fotography:

http://www.colormekatie.blogspot.com

and the whole point of my last 20 lines was 2 say:

if ne1, NE1 is actualy interested or doesnt mind DISCUSING wid lena about wat wall design she should cre8 in the space above her art box, plz do so..

i am looking 4 2nd opinions, and jus sum1 2 discus it wid.

like discusing ur dres 4 the upcoming 4mal .

i dun hav nething against u ppl not having a particular interest in art / craft, jus looking 4 sum1 2 talk about it wid. @_@"

wondr how il do the cat. cat has 2 look furry. hm.

proly buy furry cow patern material from spotlite.

bloging helps me think. thats amazing

OK

i sha lgo 2 slp

whiel my bro is stil waching horror movies on the outside comp wid max vol.

sigh.

and my eye is stil itching me

my rite eye has been itchy once in a while 4 the past wk.

its soooo anoying coz its jus 1 eye and its so itchy it turns red from me rubing it sumtimes. and itsj us 1 eye, look like a one red eyed retard ._.

but not that bad, my rite eye is blind neway.

not lieraly blind, i jus cant tel the diff in my vision if i open or close it.

aka, doesnt make a diff 2 my vision.

ok, heres my shpoing list 4 tmrow:

1. white/cream unstrechable tissue paper,

2. furry cow pattern material

3. fake vines, flowers, butterflies.

4. more plastic glowing stars 2 stik on my roof. i hav sum, jus sum. i want 2 fil my whole ceiling lol.

oh and a funy thought:

1. i spent my 1st pay of work money 2 buy lunch at work the nxt day

2. im using red poket money 2 buy craft materials 2 cre8 designs on my walls.

lol

and oh

nxt topic 2 blog about nxt post:

crazy things u did as a kid.

shal b interesting. duno bout my life thoe.

lol

much love ♥♥

we celebr8ed valentines 2day. l8 much? lol.

KEEPING MY BLOG IN FULL OPACITY 4 A BIT LOGNER.

ppl like my pics. *yay* ^^

*clap clap* 2 the fotographer alice! *cheering sounds*

and here r sum pics that i took 2day.

i thought the quality would suk but its actualy ok, they jus look crap on my fone scrn but look ok wen they're on the comp.

valentines roses

i got 3 xD

2 red, 1 white, all from diff ppl.

and on the bus home 2day, i got in as early in line from my friends as i could 2 get a seat and save seats 4 them.

obviously i couldnt and i was stuk at the bak of the bus and my friends at the front.

but all problems solved, i was stuk between a whole bunch of azns and had our own lil party at the bak of the bus.

dear gina,

SRY i wacked nadines brothers head wid ur bunch of roses wen he untied my shoes. i didnt hav spare hands and the one i could reach his head wid was the one wid ur roses. SORRY.

uuum.

ok here r the valentines pics:

roses

choc heart from hannah

choc cookie from selina

this is actualy at church.

the kids jus leftthe buket there and it has been raining so the flowers blossomed and the buket was half filed wid water.

i had nevr seen such a beautiful scene.

2 blossom trees wid a childs buket in the same shade of pink as the blossomed flowers and a green handle on the buket 2 reflect the leaves of the trees. and the buket half filed wid water.

this was in the mooks change rms. they were painted designs on the doors, so awesum. thats anna btw.

and yea lol.

much love ♥♥