i cant stop waching this.

its sounds so amazing.

and how he did the dieing cd at the end is like undiscovered science.

and he doesnt look that cute nemore but he looks prety cute in the vid 0.0"

and how i got 2 this vid?

i could sya i hav no idea but i actualy rememba.

coz its al conected/.

dachi- beat boxer

i was looking up big bang songs 2 learn on piano,

and then i went on 2 waching top sing, coz al he evr does is like, rap.

and then i wcahed top beat box.

not as amazing as the guy above but hey, u can chek him out more:

top beatboxing

and then i went on 2 female beat boxing

and then i wached a female beat boxing comp,

and then i found him on a tv show.

=P

then ia spent a hwile waching britains got talent.

i wasnt finish wid that so il kp waching after i blog.

im on my pc btw, lol.

and we ran outa milk =(

TT

OOOH

and i did my last exam 2day.

how in the world is ne1 meant 2 learn how 2prove.

the only thing i noe about proving is that if u put the last line as:

there4, watevr = watevr,

it looks like u knew wa tu were saying al along.

xP

neways, 2 questions i couldnt do:

1. simlifY: 8x^2 +4x +2 / (8x^3 + y^3)

i couldnt figure out the top part so i .. lost that question.

and the 2nd question was:

um, w8 i cant remmeba.

oh yea.

wat is x if sinx = cos 50 .

4 sum reason i couldnt work it out.

._.

and tahts that.

much love ‹33

if i find out whoevr did that mean coment (that i deleted) in my shoutbox, they r gona get bakhand slaped by me until they cry. i dun even care if ur a grl.

im not sure who wouldve, but its my bday 2day , technicaly in les than 10 mins, and reading that kinda pist me off.

if it was a joke, i hav 2 noe who u r 2 noe if it rly was a joke.

and if it wasnt, come say it 2 my face, saying it anonymously acros the net is a weak sheild.

neways, wid that aside, its my bday 2day 0.0"

il jus

describe how my whole ay went.

woke up this morn 2 my mom.

who was teling me off.

she was like: al this work money and bday money ur geting, y not put it in the bank?

me answer?

heq no.

after that she jus had this.. whole lecture about.. future car, future house et cetera.

i noe inoe, its rude 2 those ppl that spend over half their lives saving ur life.

but unnlesu were me, ud noe wat hapens after i put my money in the bank.

the only person tht can aces it is my mom.

and 2 her joy, she takes out

however much she wants

and spends it on

watevr she wants.

thats wat hapens

2 al the money

i evr put in the bank.

i feel like i jus typed a poem.

or talking on msn.

this is MY bday money and MY work money and U dun take it. ._.

and baby jus said omg.

lol, he nevr says omg.

nehoo.

so i said no. and stuk my face in2 my pilow and planed 2 stay motionles in that position until she left the rm.

she didnt leave, instead i hear her voice soften and say: il buy u a cake 2day, ok?

me: *grunts*

i wasnt gona giv her satisfaction 2 her atempt 2 releive herself from her guilt of teling me off as the 1st thing i hear on my 16th.

its comon sense 2 not start off ne1s speshal day by teling them off ._.

and then i figured that i hadnt chosen out my outfit 4 the day.

so i climbed outa bed, and had a run thru my closet.

and i found .. the dres that i had planed 2 wear at my party.

then i thought that il jus wear it 2day since the party wont b hapening neway, and i did.

ive nevr worn it b4, cept in the change rm of the store.

and i wore it 2day =)

wid like, tites and jaket coz its 2 cold 2 go out like that.

so i got changed, and the house was empty by the time i had.

our downstairs is like 9pm during broad daylite coz of the renov8ions.

so i felt like i was walking thru a movie scene of a haunted house.

neways 0.0"

there was a smal plastic container of spagheti on the table and it was warm, so i suposed it was microwaved 4 me since the house was empty and i 8 it.

tasted quite nice, i love italian pasta.

and then i played piano until i got piked up 4 church.

i got sum presents in the car,

a toy story poster

and a plaque =)

and heres jus a nother luvoh 2 show off a dres ive nevr worn

uuum.

so i get out the car, and enter chuch.

wendy didnt come 2day, felt a bit lonely... since absolutely no1 rly came.

uh, played wid duys ifone thruout the whole sermon.

sermon flew past much faster than i thought.

and then it was ... morning tea.

was bored outa my mind.

until i found the cake my mom promised 2 buy:

i like the way she got "hapy 16th bday lena xian" done in icing on the top.

im not sure if it was coz she knew i used 2 own a bratz doll or jus coz she thoguht id like it,

but this candle was a total crak up it made my day.

and im staying up 2 blog coz i want 2.

and its 11.57, technicaly stil my bdya and i do wat i want.

there r fotos of me and my lit candle on the cake but i obviously didnt take them and i cant get ne atm, blog them l8r.

hmmm.

so the cake was lovely.

very thik choc P=

after church was lunch.

the stupid thing is that my mom told me, wen i got home, that i shoulda shouted evry1 since im the youngest and it was my bday. wich i totaly disagree.

coz 1. we always hav lunch on sundays and evry1 pays 4 themselves

2. it wasdnt my bday lunch

3. i cant even aford like $200 on a normal sunday lunch 2 hsout evry1 wid my life savings.

and i saw sum prety trees on the way

neways, at the table:

we were at table 16. on my 16th bday!

thats a chopstik sleeve btw.

and i jus realised that its cute how theres a couple behind the heart lol.

yea i like that.

uuum.

after lunch i jus went home, home was empty.

went on the laptop and jus .. yea, laptoped.

put the poster outside my bros rm.

hope he doenst mind.

uuum. oh and alice came over 2.. kinda help "celebr8" my bday.

her pres 2 me was hilarious.

i spent about 5 mins tryna read the "terms and conditions" that she rote in squished silver, prety thik texta.

had a hilarious time doing that.

i stil havent figured out the last line, so far it reads:

"ne atempt 2 break these rules would result in an imprisonment of mother of god."

she siad that it works, so i gues i was .. in the rite direction. lol.

so we had a lil fail fotoshoot thing in my bakyard:

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yea thats that.

i jus did over 3 hrs , mayb 4 hrs of study.

i am XHAUSTED.

i am PUMPED 4 this exam BABY.

bring it on.

coz im nevr feeling deperesed 4 u agen.

or ne of ur family,

such as the yrly.

._.

"wont listen to any advice"

now playing: kesha - your lovei sm y drug

much love ‹33

so 2day was my 1st day of new job.

twas fun!

althoe xtremely tiring.

heres jsu a foto of uh

yea lol.

and as i was taking the foto on my fone:

mom: u .. is this .. how come.. was ur fone always that colour?

i love this job!

now i noe y my whole family (cept my bro) works in restaurant kitchens,

hm...

oh yea.

my bday party is caled off.

coz im working.

m sry =(

i noe i noe i promised 2 celebr8 my 16th.

and omg

vivid sydney?

even if i had my party, no1 would come.

and the wk aftr would b so damn l8.

it'l b the 12th of june.

like how is that even close 2 may 30th.

=(

o wel.

i gues thats y god gave me so many presents early.

i got 1 jus 2nite,

money from aunt.

but i also got another 1

and its wraped in prety paper.

im gona w8 til baby comes home then i can enjoy the xcitement and joy of opening a bday pres wid him, and it'l b xtra speshal ^^

i wondr wat it is, xD .

and im rly thirsty

um um

awt else 2 blog about

erhhh

oh yea.

the last guy that ordered

was rly cute xD

like not 1 cute guy came along coz it was raining and shops r generaly quiet wen its raining and then the last guy comes along .. =P

y did i even say that?

i hav no idea.

NEWAYS.

i am thirsty.

so il b leaving 2 get a drink now.

http://letterstocrushes.com/ :

i'll tell you what the end of the world will be like.

it will be a final moment, both terrible and heartbreaking. absolute chaos. people running as fast as they ever have, cars filling every road and freeway, phone lines backed up trying to process millions of calls, fingers flying over keyboards, thumbs texting like rapid fire, long lines of people trying to cram themselves into subways and airplanes. all of them trying to tell someone else,

"i love you."

it's not the end of the world yet, but don't wait until then to tell them. the worst thing isn't the end of the world. it's what you didn't finish - what you didn't say when you had the chance.

The way you dance in the middle of the hallways, the way you walk into doors, the way drop almost everything you touch, the way you blush all the time, the way you drum on the computer when you hear one of those old rock songs, the way you always say the weirdest things, the way you still think star wars is a cool thing, the way you know everything but still remain so clueless, the way you let your hair fall in your beautiful face, the way you burst into a song in the middle of a class, the way you see life as nothing but a beautiful thing.

These things up there, are just a small amount of all the things I love about you.

You know when you go to the pet store and there are haughty self-righteous fish swimming around in the tank, and there's one dorky sweet looking one in the corner? Yeah, I know there's other fish in the sea, but there's only one of you. You're that fish in the corner and I don't want any other damn fish, I just want you.

You stole my heart.

I'm going to steal your last name.

petite girl.

seeing you this morning was like being on cloud 9. i've missed you so much. when am i going to stop being so stupid and just come right out and say i love you while we're flipping pancakes? i'm tired of being afraid. i'm tired of being introduced as your 'best friend.' change that to 'boyfriend' and next time we can have waffles instead of pancakes.

because you like waffles better.

i almost told you how i felt this morning. you were drinking pineapple juice and doing the dishes. instead i just asked you to be my date for my cousin's wedding. of course you said yes. of course you don't think it's a real date. and of course i ruined the moment by telling some cheesy joke about dishwater and politics.

but you laughed.

so it was worth it.

breakfast tomorrow will be different. i promise. i'll stop being a coward. I WILL BE BRAVE. and i will ask you out. for real. i won't write you silly letters on this website. i will write real letters. and i'll leave them in your coffee mug. because i'm not satisfied anymore. i'm not. i'm not. i'm not.

i want to be more to you than what i am.

i love you. you're my best friend. you've been my best friend since we were 15 years old. i love all of you. i love the way you don't mind my crazy bed-head in the mornings when you come over. or how you say "photograph" wrong. the pretty little mole on your left wrist. i love that you always wear your slippers to the grocery store. i love that you know what i'm thinking.

i love you.

i want to marry you.

i decided that the moment i met you in high school. i decided you would be my wife. and eating breakfast with you as friends for the past 7 years has made me want that even more.

but first i just have to ask you out for real.

i feel like throwing up.

i can't even imagine proposing to you.

i need to take this one step at a time. i need to learn not to joke at important conversation points. like discussions over dating.

and i need to find something to wear to that wedding tomorrow.

tall boy

"I want to tel let her know

that I'm sorry

tell her

that I love her."

now playing: j.bealie - wanna let her know

much love ‹33

so yesterday i was working in the garage wid my bro.

my neighbours car is a veyr nice shadeo f blue.

we put up curtain sheets and i figured they were shower curtains.

there was a seat wid a cushion and i thought it looked sumwat like a dog if i moved the cushion up. i took the picture jus in time b4 my bro (behind the seat) came along and pushed it over

this is wat it originaly looked like

and i thought these were footprints until i realised they were jus bits of plastic.

and my skirt looks extremely longh ere, almost ankle length.

but its jus below my knee.

yea, i dun go 2 one of those skools that wear fabric BELTS as "skool unifrm" ..

rare isnt it? especialy nowadays.

finaly, we got sumwhere!

not perfect yet, but we'l get sumwhere further nxt time =)

and i stayed up last nite and ended up spending a few minutes making this:

was quite fun, cept wen im rly RLY slpy, its that feeling of sliping in and out of consciousness and yea, i was in the mid of that.

and i jus had brekky.

from one of these guys:

and as azn as i am, i hav nevr eaten from one of those b4.

was very fun =)

"im eating from a cardboard box!"

lol.

and yea its 2pm and i havent studied nething.

im sooooo screwd.

WAT THE HEL AM I DOING STIL SITING HERE

*rage rage*

-------

im bak.

wid a huge surprise.

omg.

oooomg

hooooollyyy craaaaap TT

wat do i do wat do i do.

do i blow my head off screaming like i jus did or do i stay very calm and colected like normal ppl or do i put it away or or

omg

oh my god.

oh my motherly god.

im sry, i promised 2 open it on my bday but but

i saw the

yes optus logo thru the wraping paper

and told joshy

NAD JOSHY SAID OPEN A BIT

so

i did.

so its al his fault D=

im not sure if the person that got me this wants 2 b named,

but im gona say ty 2 him a few more bilion times on top of the one time wen he jus handed it 2 me.

yea.. u can tel ive been.

studying very

hard

2day.

*cough*

curiosity jus burns wen u c sumtin like the yes optus logo ok?

TT

much love ‹33

first day at school:
sway sway baby - short stacks.

lol, not bad ... i gues.

falling in love:
come in2 my life - dj splash.

lOL.

fight song:

dirty picture LOL

breaking up:

getaway car ahahhaa

prom:
jay sean - stuck in the middle

life:
so cold - stevie hoang.

haha, oh dear.

mental breakdown:
always - big bang

if its a breakdown over love then its.. =P

driving:
inna - hot.

yea im hot wen i drive.

flashback:
stuttering - mario

wedding:
lil eddie-confetti.

ok, the song may sound nice as confeti on my weding but it means :

A MILION PIECES OF A BROKEN HEART

FALING DOWN

._.

birth of child:
all or notihing - jay sean.

hey that actualy fits.

final battle:
miss u crazy - neyo

ahahhaaa xD

death scene:
adore u - lil rain.

oh its quite a sad song.

funeral song:
gossip man - g dragn AHAHAHAHHAHA

rememberance song:
ilya - all about u

oh thats nice

end credits:
riding solo - jay sean

how does the world see you?

always b my baby - mariah carey

ahahaha... yea i like that.

will i have a happy life?
down - jay sean.

its kinda a hapy song but the title is ...

im notsure actualy.

what do my friends really think of me:
booty music - deepside.

... u rly think that abiout me? IS THAT THE ONLY REASON Y UR FRINDS WID ME?!

what do people secretly think of me:
wat hurts the most - cascada.

yea, i broke al ur hearts coz thats the way u thought of me.

how can i be happy?:
take my hand

this is a religious song but its stil very nice =)

what should i do with my life?:
shes rite here - neyo

not rly sure wat that means.

i should stay where ia m/

or stay wid my partner.. as the song sings.

will i ever have children?:
ur love is my drug - kesha.

?

what is some good advice for me?:
fantasy - danny fernandes

"take a second and dream..."

yea i like that.

how will i be remembered?:
justin bieber - baby.

"thought ud always b mine"

=P

what is my signature dancing song?:
FIREFLIES.

YEA MAN I JUS.. fly wen i..

dance.. ._.

what do i think my current theme song is?:
jay sean - war.

=\

what does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
omg - usher

LOL

what song will play at my funeral?:
u got it bad - usher

what type of men/women do you like?:
do u remmba - jay sean

what is my day going to be like?:
without u - brandon.

D=

NOOOO! TT

neways ,taht was sum test on like: if ur life was a movie film kidna thing

sigh.

neways,

2day i was doing my eng speech

and im uberly depresed over how bad i did.

il clear sumtin from here:

i absolutely

h8

h8

h8

riting speeches.

ok?

i jus h8 riting stuf 4 skool 2 beging wid.

but i hav nothing rong wid saying speeches.

i find it easy and not nerve raking.

I FAILED THE QUESTION.

I DIDNT EVEN ANSWER

THE QUESTION.

AND I WENT 2 WHOLE

SOLID

MINS OVER TIME

COZ OF THE AMOUNT OF BUL CRAP I DID.

DEAR.

GOD.

KIL.

ME!

and then he goes on about sumtin about

divided atention ._.

sigh.

i am not depresed i am not depresed.

I SHOULD

post sumtin hapy

uuum uuum.

its my bday in 3 days.

i used 2 b

rly excited about my bday.

even wen nothing hapens on it.

but its my 16th

i hsould b screaming

i gues my half yrlies

kil.

*depresion depresion*

I HAV

BEEN ADICTED 2 THIS SONG:

times two (tik tok rework)

=)

even thoe it sounds a bit hi 4 a guy 2 b singing in such a pich, it stil..

sounds good.. 2 me.

=P

and i want 2 apologise 2 ne1

that ive been a total bich 2.

its coz

im jus deprsed

over 1. my eng speech

2. doing nothing on my bday

3. maths exam

4. my party i hav 2 organise 4 nxt wk.

i havent felt so depresed 4 a long time.

WAT THE HEL this sounds like sum ... emo blog

i hav 2 stop ._.

whos up 4 a game of ... dominoes? =)

how do u even play dominoes?

much love ‹33

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.

02. You have been in a serious relationship before.

03. You own an iPod of some sort.

04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.

05. You drink too much alcohol.

06. You have been to the Olive Garden.

07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.

08. It is really cold in your house right now.

09. You are extremely dependent on others.

10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.

11. You ate a lot of food today.

12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry.

13. People consider you a sappy sort of person.

14. Someone in your family is rich.

15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.

16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.

17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.

18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.

19. You have had a serious surgery.

20. Your house has a spare bedroom.

21. Your house is old.

22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.

23. You have never held a baby before.

24. You can’t handle toddlers.

25. You have a painting in your room.

26. You have been to Canada.

27. You have been to Mexico.

28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.

29. You celebrate Easter.

30. You observe Lent.

31. You are Catholic.

32. You do not believe in God.

33. Religion is not important to you.

35. You would rather have more sons than daughters.

36. You have more aunts than uncles. not sure.

37. You hate being too cold.

38. You currently are way more tan than everyone else.

39. You wear shoes in your house.

40. Your parents are clean freaks.

41. You are more messy than clean.

42. You are currently angry at someone.

43. Patience is so not a virtue to you.

44. Your desk is extremely clean.

45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.+rainbow

46. When you hear “black & white” it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘Hot n Cold’ song.

47. You have no clue what that song is.

48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.

49. You are glad George Bush is out of office.

50. Politics are boring to you.

51. You take a vitamin daily.

52. You feel like you are sick often.

53. You hate throwing up

54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.

55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.

56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.

57. You love getting bubble baths.

58. You do not like chocolate at all.

59. You are allergic to nuts.

60. You have been stung by a bee before.

61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.

62. One of your parents is 50 or older.

63. You are the baby of your immediate family.

64. You hate broccoli.

65. Cooked carrots are good, though.

66. You go on tumblr too much.

67. You are really comfortable right now.

68. You like witty t-shirts.

69. You are a major fan of underground bands.

70. You have been on an airplane before.

71. You are not afraid of heights.

72. You consider yourself paranoid.

73. You have had a panic attack/ breakdown before.

74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.

75. You would choose the elderly over children.

76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.

77. You have smoked weed before.

78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.

79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.

80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.

81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.

82. You are a big breakfast eater. sumtimes its al i evr eat.

83. You are currently suffering from the common cold.

84. You are craving something salty.

85. You have been in a car today.

86. There is something plugged in near you.

87. You have heard of the TV show “Private Practice.”

88. You do not like medical television shows.

89. You prefer horror to comedies.

90. You adore Leo & Kate.

91. You think high-waisted pants look good.

92. You hate cheesy movies.

93. You enjoy camping out.

94. Bugs don’t bother you.

95. You do well in school without trying.

96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.

97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.

98. You like energy drinks.

99. You like italics.

100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls.

lol.

im not gona blog about my yetsers but al i could say is:

that day was priceles.

=P

2day i hav 2 do my speech.

wen i come home im gona study 4 my mathstest, wich i hav curently studied 0 4.

uuuum.

i havent timed or practised my speech but im hoping il go wel since ive tried 2 memorise it so far.

sigh.

its10am and im stil in bed.

good thing is i got my speech in my head,

and i hav the rest of the day 2 actualy practise it physicaly.

sigh.

i want a prize after this ._.

but i needa studdyyyyyyy

4 maaaaaaths

2dayyyyy

and tmroooooow

coz im wooooorking

and then ive got chuuuurch

wich is also on my bdaaaaay TT

i sounded like joshy jus then,

but i meant 2 sound dragy and tired and xhausted ._.

and then after church + my bday is my maaaths exaaaam.

and then after my maaaths exaaam is my Ls test

and then after my Ls test is my parrttyyy wich i hav organised absolutely 0 4 TT

all in les than 2 wks TT

ok 1st things 1st.

my speech.

OH CRAP

DUUYYYY

U DIDNT COME OVER ON TUES

2 TEACH ME ALL STATIONS 2 CENTRAL

CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA P.

*throws self in corner and cries*

i should lift myself up and make sum brekky ._

coz im starving ._.

much love ‹33

i jus had my eco exam i feel like crap i yawned at least 5 times thruout the whole exam i lost 20 marks DEFINITELY coz i didnt get the question but i stil had 2 put down sum bulcrap coz it was 20 marks and the teacher is gona strangle me if i dun rite nething at al i nevr wana speak of taht exam agen.

and theres sum rly hi.. whistle sound sumwhere.

i feel like im listening 2 an endles dog whistle.

who evrs blowing that dog whistle has a lot of breath.

the dog whistle and is acvtualy kinda melodic , is this sum1s musiq? coz its prety damn anoying ._.

and i feel like crap, such a bad exam. i hav my speech on thurs, i havent timed it, read thru it, or nething. i need 2 practise it, memorise lil bits 2 makem y eye contact and OMG my maths exam on mons.

ok i shouldnt b wrying about eithr since i dun rly care about eithr but i feel almost pist off about eco. and that dog whistle is insane.

and i jus 8 the weirdest sandiwch that i saw in the fridge 2day.

mom this morn: hey how come u didnt eat the sandiwch that aunt made u yesters?

me: AUNT made me a SANDWICH?.... 4 ME? wen was the last time we saw a sandwich bing made in this house? and y in the world would she decide 2 make me a sandwich? and wat meal was it even made 4? dinr? she wasnt even home at lunch time. and wat the hel is in this sandwich? itsl ike .. wat the hel did she put in this sandwich?

so i jus 8 that sandwich jus then, was letuce, ham, cheese.

..

and a whole load of peanut buter that covers evrything.

like im ok wid it, but its a weird combo that hasnt always been the best.

and i rly cant think of ne posible explain8ion of a handmade sandwich in my fridge. and wat the hel.

aunt made me a sandwich. pfft. even theo i stil 8 it. coz i was hungry.

but thats like my worst enemy at skool ofering 2 do my hw. who even, how is the, wat is god doing?

how could a few slices of bread wid.. letuce, ham, cheese and a whole load of peanut buter confuse me so much. @_@".

and wat was wid evry1 doing the 2nd choice quesion 4 extended response?

i understood nothing of the 1st choice question, understood 2 words of the 2nd choice question,

and so i decided 2 do the 2nd choice question. and WAT THE CRAP matty rote 6 pages and stil needed more time on the 1st choice question. hwo do u even go past 3 pages on a topic like economics.

wat has this world come 2?

dear god kil me. @_@"

OH YEA

the thing joshy made me.

ngaw =)

and i like how he spels my name as leena. my child care teacher told my mom that if its gona b pronounced leeee-na, then its spelt leena and they were gona change my name but it nevr hapened and so my name is len-ah. =P

and alice told me she noes a guy caled len. then agen there r guys caled lee. like jackie chan in rush hour.

=P

much love ‹33